"Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up, -James A. Baldwin "
When I first saw you, it was at the stairs. Everybody rushing to get foods, and I was standing there alone waiting for my friend. I'm feeling like a dumb waiting for him in that crowd, so I shouted his name. You just look at me and yell something to me. I'm sorry, I can't hear you. Swear God I just saw you like an angel passing my way. Swear God, I'd never seen a boy like you before. On that day, I tell myself you are one in a million :)
I'll search for you everyday, starring at you from the distance. My day wouldn't be perfect if I didn't see you. I am not lying if I'm talking about you. No one knows about this. Just me, and God. Until one day your friend came to me, telling about your feeling towards me. That night was the best part of my life, we go back together and you told me that you like me. But it seems like you're not being serious. But I always tell myself that I'll be yours. I don't wanna lose you if you are mine. I'll love you once and forever. I swear to my heart.
Since that day we became closer and closer. You called me every night, you said that you missed me. I've changed a lot since we're together. Myself told me. But swear God I don't want to put you on negative side. I didn't lie, it's true. And lastly we declared as a couple one night. I LOVE YOU, you make me seriously fall in love with you.
Hah yeah you Billman, I miss you each time I'm doing anything. I swear I cant live without you, I swear I'll love you for my entire life, I swear, I didn't lie.
But lastly we got a fight, yea I still remember that day, a day before my birthday, 23th September. You point on me for everything that I didn't do, I know, you are fallin for someone else. Thank you for you kind treat to me as your gf. Maybe I deserve for it. I cried because of you that night, everyday after that day. I'm half crazy of losing you. My mood turn off everyday. I didn't see the light anymore, the light from my angle. He's gone and will never come back. Until one day I got mad and ate . . .. Stop it, it's a secret. For God sake, I'm hoping for you to say that you miss me. Altough a bit. But it's nothing. I'm just hoping.
From that day on, I used to walk alone. I'm learning how to smile without you, I'm trying not to cry when I saw you, I pretend to be normal outside but half crazy inside, I'm laughing and smiling, but it's all fake. I'm not myself anymore. I'm lying to myself, yea, myself.
Sorry, I miss you.
P/S : Berger, I miss u more XD
